Catching Up
Oct. 21st, 2002 10:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kitsap_charlesOkay, I haven't posted in almost a month. Deal with it.
The longer I wait to write, the harder it is to get over the inertia. So I'm writing, maybe more often and maybe not.
How's school, Charles? Thanks for asking. I'm studying beginning HTML, intermediate PC hardware, and LAN fundamentals. The HTML class is embarassingly easy, the hardware class hasn't yet had an exam, and the LAN class is mostly memorization-- except that today we finally got around to making a cable. Eight tiny fiddly little wires that have to be in exactly the right sequence inside an RJ-45 connector-- and then do the same thing again on the other end of the cable. (My small motor skills suck, did you know that?) I was the last one finished, but the thing worked. Yay.
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angilong and I have been talking. We've also been saying some very hateful things to each other. It's marginally better than angry silence, but not by much.
I have no job, and I must scream. Unemployment runs out real soon, and there isn't a part-time position in sight. Angi's Insignificant Other recommended both of us to his employers for customer service jobs, but that was weeks ago with not a peep from them. I might qualify for a phone job at Starbucks, but I'd have to drop out of school to work there.
At least my "Commissioner Approved Training" was... umm... approved. That means I don't have to look for a job in order to continue collecting what little unemployment I'm entitled to receive, so long as I'm a full-time student. Big whoop. Oh, and the college will cover my first quarter's tuition and books in full; I'm still waiting to hear whether my retraining grant proposal will be approved. If not, then I'll be a Community College dropout.
What bothers me most, I think, is that it all looks downhill from here. This is as good as it ever will be again, and today my life feels as though it sucks pustulent goat scrotums.
But I've been chatting online with friends and acquaintances. which helps somewhat. Whenever I think I've got things bad, I consideraladriana and marvel at the way she keeps her head above water despite troubles a myriad more trying than mine.
I miss many of my departed friends, and some who used to be in contact but aren't any more.luvlyrita, where are you?
The longer I wait to write, the harder it is to get over the inertia. So I'm writing, maybe more often and maybe not.
How's school, Charles? Thanks for asking. I'm studying beginning HTML, intermediate PC hardware, and LAN fundamentals. The HTML class is embarassingly easy, the hardware class hasn't yet had an exam, and the LAN class is mostly memorization-- except that today we finally got around to making a cable. Eight tiny fiddly little wires that have to be in exactly the right sequence inside an RJ-45 connector-- and then do the same thing again on the other end of the cable. (My small motor skills suck, did you know that?) I was the last one finished, but the thing worked. Yay.
On the home front,
angilong and I have been talking. We've also been saying some very hateful things to each other. It's marginally better than angry silence, but not by much.I have no job, and I must scream. Unemployment runs out real soon, and there isn't a part-time position in sight. Angi's Insignificant Other recommended both of us to his employers for customer service jobs, but that was weeks ago with not a peep from them. I might qualify for a phone job at Starbucks, but I'd have to drop out of school to work there.
At least my "Commissioner Approved Training" was... umm... approved. That means I don't have to look for a job in order to continue collecting what little unemployment I'm entitled to receive, so long as I'm a full-time student. Big whoop. Oh, and the college will cover my first quarter's tuition and books in full; I'm still waiting to hear whether my retraining grant proposal will be approved. If not, then I'll be a Community College dropout.
What bothers me most, I think, is that it all looks downhill from here. This is as good as it ever will be again, and today my life feels as though it sucks pustulent goat scrotums.
But I've been chatting online with friends and acquaintances. which helps somewhat. Whenever I think I've got things bad, I consider
aladriana and marvel at the way she keeps her head above water despite troubles a myriad more trying than mine.I miss many of my departed friends, and some who used to be in contact but aren't any more.
luvlyrita, where are you?
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Perish the thought
Date: 2002-10-22 12:18 am (UTC)Hang in there :)
Re: Perish the thought
Re: Perish the thought
Date: 2002-10-27 09:58 am (UTC)As for my maximized miracle, I guess you'll have to ask those that are *very* close to me about that ;)
Miracle Max
Nevada / Northern Cal
Date: 2002-10-27 10:15 am (UTC)Offroad Pic
Date: 2002-10-28 12:50 am (UTC)Miracle Max
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Date: 2002-10-22 01:43 am (UTC)Yes, it does sometimes feel like the whole world is going downhill from here and sucking "pustulent goat scrotums". I'm having one of those nights, so believe me I hear ya!
The good news is, I think that despite the feeling of ultimate doom things are really going to turn out okay. Probably not as we expect, but okay.
Wow, that is so maryanne sunshine I think I want to yell at myself now.
So...perhaps ignore the annoying comments and just take a very big mental hug from me. *HUG*
Vamp:)=
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Date: 2002-10-22 02:04 am (UTC)I'm not supposed to be typing, but for you I'll make the exception. I know things look bleak now. But I also refuse to believe this is the best it can get for you. Things will get better, just no promises on when.
Re: Catching Up
Date: 2002-10-22 08:21 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2002-10-22 10:14 am (UTC)you're taking the right steps with your career--you're talking. there's absolutely nothing to be gained from not making the effort to make your life better in the areas where you want it to be better. there's no guarantee that any particular thing will pay off, but not doing things certainly won't pay off. keep asking for what you want--you do deserve it.
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Date: 2002-10-22 12:59 pm (UTC)I know the feeling. There have periods in my life where I felt that it would never end. When the light at the end of the tunnel turned out to be oncoming trains, etc.
However, it does eventually end.
The main thing is to be aware it's happening.
Looking the back, the worst period of my life was when I was unaware of it. I just muddled through, didn't look beyond the next week, the next day, the next hour.
mmm
Date: 2002-10-22 05:36 pm (UTC)I love you Daddy
I Miss you
I care about you
I want the very best for you
I know that things will get better
and I didn't know you were into beastiality.
Most of all I love you.
Miriam
Re: mmm
I'd tell you to go to your room, but you're probably already there.
Re: mmm
Date: 2002-10-26 12:54 am (UTC)Miriam
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Date: 2002-10-25 09:57 am (UTC)sorry again for my absence
i've been obscessed with...
...a married man
...a bitchy sister
sorry life is hard for you now
i'll try to get online later
maybe help you feel a little better...'k? ;)
kisses, rita
Re:
Date: 2002-10-28 06:52 am (UTC)Did you notice in
Oooh. You now have my complete attention.